He grabbed one of Punky's dolls and I asked him what it was. "BAYBEE!" WHAAAA? When did he learn THAT? He can suddenly put two different syllables together. And he says it in a little baby Chicken voice unlike his other "language." I got a glimpse of how he would be in a year or two.
Hubby is schedule for the big "V" tomorrow and I guess I'm reminded of how quick time passes. Don't get me wrong, I'm ready for him to get neutered, but it's bittersweet knowing I'm about to embark on the last infant-hood ever with my own children. Somedays it can't come soon enough, others I want to hold on just a little tighter to these feelings (not the grouchiness though), savor the smell of their freshly bathed skin, bask in each smile and giggle, and enjoy each precious moment while they're little. Already Punky is too big and her babyhood is fading from my mind. I don't remember what Chicken looked like a year ago.
Hubby and I were just talking about this the other day. Each stage is special in its own way. I look forward to each and every one of them. But having them little is such a THING for most women and it is sad to know they won't be this dependent on me forever or I won't ever experience birth or seeing a child of mine for the first time again. I'm happy to think about my children growing, becoming independent little adults, becoming who they want and should be. I'm happy for the time I've been given to have THREE children of my own after I never thought I would EVER experience this, especially in my own body. God gave me a child for every year I had to wait and it's made it all worth it. Yes, it's stressful somedays. But no, it's not horrible like most people assume (or I might have led you to believe in my pregnant, hormonal state) and I don't regret it.
These days will soon be over and I'll be wishing for just a small taste of it all again. I know that'll happen but I'm happy with our family. Will always be happy with our three babies and the joy they bring into my life every single day.
But just for the record, stop growing up so fast, will ya?