Life at home

First off, thanks to you all for your support about the breast feeding.  I was definitely having a low day and after a little bit of sleep I am feeling much better, although nothing will take away the regret I'll always feel about it.

On a happy note, New Baby is adjusting well to life outside the womb.  She's sleeping 3 to 4 hour stretches at night, which I certainly can't complain.  Punky and Chicken had their days and nights mixed up pretty good for about a week, slept sporadically and in general were just fussy.

It's so sweet to see Hubby so smitten with her.  I have to admit, with Punky and Chicken it wasn't like this.  We were both short tempered and couldn't wait for the day they slept through the night.  I guess knowing this is the last one is really making a difference for us.  Don't get me wrong, I can't wait until she sleeps through the night, but at least this go around I have more patience and enjoy the moments she looks up at me in the semi-darkness with her big round eyes and studies me.  Hubby got up without me asking him last night and got her bottle ready.  He even laid back down and leaned over on my shoulder, watching her.  Granted, it was only for like 10 seconds before he flopped back down and rolled over only to start snoring again, but believe me when I say that NEVER happened with the others, lol.

Hubby even mentioned to me that he had a moment of regret in the hospital about the "v".  For once, I was the sensible one and said, "Let's end this on a good note instead of having a REALLY bad baby and ending up bitter like some other people we know."  Don't get me wrong, I've had MANY moments of regret since bringing her home.  But babies are like puppies, they grow up.  Babies grow up to get sassy like Punky since we've brought New Baby home.

Both Punky and Chicken are adjusting somewhat.  Punky as I mentioned is a little sassier and isn't obeying as well, but Chicken is definitely whinier and clingier.  I feel bad for them both.  This is one of the reasons I know we made the right decision to stop at 3.  I just can't give them enough personal attention if we kept going.  I'm working hard to stop a couple of times a day and give them a hug or sit with them.  It really helps that New Baby is so easy so far.  But of course, I enjoy the time I have with her after the other two are in bed.

So, has anyone had any trouble with circulation after an epidural?  Of course, mine was a dud since it got in my arms and made me sleepy, but I've been having some pretty bad circulation in my hands since delivery.  I'm hoping that crazy anesthesiologist didn't do any permanent damage...