Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Forgive me, I'm pregnant.

So I've discovered potty training is the pits.  For whatever reason, Punky has decided it's no longer worth the treats, the praise or the "big girlness" to go in the potty.  For whatever reason, I'm done with trying right now.  I know, I know, all you people who know me know that's very uncharacteristic of me.  I'm a die hard do it or die kind of person most of the time when it comes to my kiddos and how they're raised.  But right now, I'm working on getting an ear infection, cooking a baby, keeping a house mostly clean (and believe me when I say I'm failing MISERABLY at that one) and trying not to keel over.  So...little Miss Punky gets to decide when she's ready.  I figure it has a lot to do with teething, a new baby being on it's way and just a myriad of things I've probably confused her about over the weeks we've been potty training.  I've decided for a two week trial, I'm going to completely back away from it and see what happens.  No discipline, no harsh words, only praise.  No candy rewards either.  She's got to learn to go for the simple satisfaction that she's a big girl.  My MIL seems to agree and Hubby will hopefully see that it's too much on me right now to keep up with everything.  As my father in law always says, they won't be 20 and not ____ (potty training, walking, etc).  I have to relax and slow down.  Otherwise, I'm seriously in danger of overdoing it.

Speaking of which, I went to the doc today and I'm not progressing.  It's oh so frustrating, even with the knowledge that she needs to stay in about 2 more weeks to be cooked enough to survive without the NICU.  I'm at a point right now where all I want to do is cry.  As I mentioned earlier, I'm working on an ear infection I believe.  Last night I started feeling achy and fluish and my ear was killing me.  I'm nauseous and sweaty all.the.time.  You've heard of boob sweat well, I got that AND belly sweat.  I could take 4 showers a day and still feel gross.  I definitely prefer being this pregnant in the winter!  The good news is that my doc said New Baby's head is LOW.  As in, by his illustration, she was only 2.5 inches or so inside of me vs. the normal 5.  So my question is, if I eat a lot of something like cheese and constipate myself real good, will pushing make her come out sooner?  Yeah, that's what I thought.  I'm stuck being pregnant and miserable for another 4 weeks.  I guess it could be worse.  At least my doc will induce at 38.  An induction I will walk into with bells on my toes at this point.

The Hubby doesn't have a clue what to do with me either.  I think I'm really surprising him with this pregnancy.  I've really sucked it up and been able to handle my two prior ones, but this go around, even I'm surprising myself.  My energy level is zapped and I can't make myself NOT beg him every day to come home early.  I used to be able to make it until around 5 or 5:30 just fine..now it's 4 or 4:30 depending on how late the kiddos sleep for their nap.  And then, the worst of it is, BOTH of them are teething right now and their moods match mine.  They whine, cry and pitch fits all day.  I'm not opposed to stamping my foot if I don't get my way lately, either.  I guess we're all just alike right now and that's why we're not getting along.  :o)

Sorry for the less than happy post.  You'll have to forgive me.  I'm getting crabby this late in the game...


Anonymous said...

Hang in there!! My heart goes out to you and my prayers are with you.

Krystyn said...

Oh, man....you are scaring me if there is a pregnancy #3. You are lucky your doctor will induce. Mine won't until 42 WEEKS!!! I better not make it that far.

Hopefully, she is prepared for an early exit and you don't get to that point.

And as far as the potty training...I'm in the same boat. I'm waiting until she is really ready instead of this silly song and dance.

Jennifer Shirk said...

Deep breath...

It's okay to feel this way. Two young children and one on the way is very stressful right now.
YOu're so much like me it's not even funny.
I'm going to add you to my prayer list, sweetie. I really pray you don't have an ear infection.

Take care. {{hugs}}

OHmommy said...

That last month is always the hardest. I hope it goes my SUPER fast!